Adam's 26th.

Bella: I dah lama tak rasa in love dengan you.

Adam: I selalu in love dengan you.

Bella: Really? How come?

Adam: I'm always in love with you bila you tengah tidur. You always look so peaceful.

..

Adam: Sampai lah you mengamuk bila I kacau you. Terus tak in love dah.

Hahaha yeap, we go to bed at different times most nights. And as sweet as the above conversation sounds, I can be very violent when I'm half awake. When Adam said 'mengamuk', that's actually no joke. Mengamuk I did. Even to something as simple as a quick kiss.

Anyways, today is his birthday! Nothing special, no surprises (btw do you know how HARD it is to plan for surprises when both of you are staying together, and even work together? REALLY HARD). Gone were the days when I wrote sappy stuff, arranged random surprises and whatnot. I'm just constantly tiireeeddd and worn out. Every. Single. Day.

Buuttt I managed not to kick him last night when he kacau me sleeping, so that's good enough on his birthday, yay!

Aaannddd we're leaving for Italy tomorrow for a week so at least that's something!

Alright. Talk later. I know the title says Adam's 26th, but it's literally like any other day. Life tak berapa exciting lately, tunggu lah balik Italy nanti.

Btw I love you too baby, only when I'm not sleeping.

Cranky birthday.

I'm a cranky bunny right now. Or as Adam would've said it - a grouchy Smurfette.

Note that Grouchy and Smurfette are two completely different Smurfs altogether so that's not a correct term!

(we recently bought an xbox with a Smurfs game, so bear with me.)

Anyways, back to being cranky.

I don't know. A lot has been happening, and believe it or not, I've had multiple blog posts drafted on my iPhone, only that when I opened them on laptop - somehow the text cursor (you know, the blinking one that shows where you are on the screen) wouldn't show up. Every time. So I ended up not editing them, which further makes them, well, un-post-able! No that's not a word, I'm just cranky.

Somehow I feel that my life came to a halt post-finals and elective. I should have a million things to do but none of them are progressing anywhere. Get UK visa done, nope. Driving license, nope. Accommodation in Northampton, nope. And I'm not even pregnant yet! Well the last bit because we're not even trying, so of course it won't happen. Ahhh again, bear with me, I'm just being cranky. 

I had my birthday recently, which was as mundane as any other days. It was a cold-rainy-typical-English-weather day, and I had to leave veeery early to catch a veeery early bus to General Hospital. All because Adam was on nights, so I couldn't have a ride to the hospital. Come to think of it, I was actually grumpy on that very day. (that was when Adam coined the name grouchy Smurfette.)

Came home to this later.

I can go on forever about the grammar errors, but for someone who just spent the whole night running around the hospital saving lives, 5 stars for the effort!

So my birthday gift this year is pretty unique. Adam let me choose three things.

1 item.

1 activity.

1 'anything'.

Yes I was wondering too what kind of 'anything' would it be. Until last night.

I was watching the movie PS. I Love You on TV in the lounge while Adam on his computer in the room. He suddenly came out and said, "Baby, just to let you know, that 'anything' I wrote in the card really means 'anything' tau," with a loving innocent look on his face.

It was the perfect timing as I was all sappy from the movie. So I said,

"I want a love letter each day, every day, till my next birthday."

Of course he refused out right. Actually no, he gave it a thought, asking me if it's a letter or just a simple love note, pondering on what it would be like having to write beautiful words for his wife for another 365 days. (it's actually less since 5 days have passed since my birthday).

And nope, he wasn't going to do it.

(referring to the movie),

"He knows he's dying, of course he has so much to say. You want me to die early, is it?"

I'm going to ask for a handbag every month, instead.

Quarter century old.

Kena upload sebab nanti boleh guna jadi modal nak sappy dengan Nadd. 

Sebab dedua gila kentang strong women, katanya.

We made a joke how we don't have a circle of close friends here, in Leicester. We have a line of friend, instead. (cause there's only two of us, so it's a line, geddit geddit?)

And we're so contented that we refuse to extend our line into a circle. 

Sigh, what do I do la without her.

I love you too, Nadd.

As you turn 24.

As you turn 24
You start to wonder, you begin to ponder
Where this road is taking you once school is over
Do you stay in Belfast where everything is familiar --
-- Or seek the comfort of a wife in Leicester --
-- Or even perhaps go back to your root, and serve em taxpayers.

As you turn 24
Your features soften, your smiles widen
You find yourself laughing a little more often
And goof on your wife of being pregnant
There there, little do you realise what actually happens
Maybe it's time to think of having children?

As you turn 24
You cook healthily, you go to gym
No more oily junks, just grill or steam
As you become more consistent, in pride you beam
As you become hunkier, the harder it seems
To take my eyes off you, with my naughty grin.

As you turn 24
You drool on cars, not that you hadn't before
It just seems more possible, that Audi A4
But a wife who wants an A6 is probably going to make you poor
You wonder if teaching her cars was a good idea after all.

As you turn 24
You pay for more things as I stand there and watch
You still do chores like putting laundry in the wash
Never did you whine, neither did you dodge
Sometimes it makes me feel guilty just a tiny little notch
But to be the luckiest wife alive, I feel posh.

As you turn 24
You cook the best rendang nevermind the paste
But still asks me how to cook chicken to your taste
Not that everything I cook is always the nicest
So at times I wonder if you're just being courteous
But oh well, it's not everyday I can be a cook genius.

As you turn 24
You still call your wife your baby gurl
Gurl with a 'u', it's completely intentional
It drives me mad but I find it adorable
It makes me break my grammar nazi rule
It's the child in you that makes you playful.

As you turn 24 this year
It's nearly 5 years we've been together
You do realise, it's a long time to annoy each other
Still I love you all the same and perhaps a little greater
We've come this far, we've taken it further
And I know in distance do our hearts silently suffer
And that I never get to be there on your birthday doesn't make it any better
Still, we persevere
For in this love of ours, do the hearts find pleasure.


As you turn 24 this year
I wish it will be your last birthday without me, ever.



Happy 24th sayang,
-- Your Bella.

24.

Guys, I have a confession.

*grits teeth*

I came to Belfast again not even 7 days since my last trip.

*grins*

Having said that, I was here last weekend, went back to Leicester on Monday, and flew again into Belfast the next Saturday. Was at home for not even 48 hours when I sent Adam a text asking if it would be too much for me to come again this weekend and as usual, he did not say no. Yes my husband spoils me a wee bit too much and I'm loving it. Teehee.

But then how can he say no if it was my birthday that weekend?

*dance dance*

At first he said he couldn't get me anything since I came in a very short notice. He got me the usual Ferrero Rocher as he would and said the actual gift would come later. Oh well, if it was up to me, to be here with him on my actual birthday is one of the biggest gift I could probably ask. So no gift yet? Not complaining. Yes, long distance relationship does that to you, you know. You settle for togetherness if anything.

But then later during the day he surprised me with this!



I especially love the card! It's so classy that I was in complete awe with it. My fingers kept tracing the details like so jakun hehe.

Then as I unwrapped it..



Now there is a story behind this wrapping paper. If you're familiar with Belfast, there's this cool shop called Avoca which sells everything you don't need but you desperately want. They sell very pretty stuff that I couldn't stop ooh-aaah-ing as I browsed through the store and put my hands on everything! We went there last week when I was here (ahem lol) and I made a comment on how pretty the wrapping paper is. But then there would be no point for me to buy it and I was guessing it would be expensive too? *chapskate alert*. I said it ever so lightly like a passing remark but I didn't expect Adam to pick it up and actually buy it for my birthday present! *cries* Told you I'm probably too spoilt by him. *wipes tears*

Little things, man. Little things that matter. 

Then the actual gift.



I KNOW RIGHT!!

No wonder the card is so classy, there's a Classic that comes with it! (failed pun lol)

Yes, it's an iPod Classic! To be honest the idea of getting myself a Classic has been going on for a few years now, but it came every so often that I get used to live with it. But now?!?!!!

What did I do to deserve you darling. Sigh.

(Of course I offered to cook lunch even when it's my birthday like a good wife does, hehe)

Thank you darling love. *bear hug*

Well to be fair right after he gave me this and laughed at my epic tears (as he would call it), I went on my family's Whatsapp group, only to find loads of birthday wishes from the big family - some of them even sang on the phone!

How la not to cry like that. *more epic tears*

On another note, 24 is a big number you see. My parents, at the age of 24 had had a baby already. Me? All I have is that old ancient feeling when even Adam is not yet 24! *cringes*

But anywhoo, Alhamdulillah. This is my second birthday that we got to celebrate together on the actual day after nearly 5 years of being together. (Refer to the long distance point). And for that I thank Allah for every second of this life I have and this man I am blessed with.

And of course these load of family I can't live without! Well actually for everything. I can't even list them down or it will take forever. You know that feeling when you look back thinking wow, life is amazing that all you can do is sigh? Well that's how I feel since the past few days.

Alhamdulillah. To a better 24!

The birthday Kindle.

I've probably broken my own personal record for the longest time I've been silent from the blog.

Almost a month. HOW COULD I NOT BLOG FOR ALMOST A MONTH?!??

Now where do I begin with..

Alright, first there was the exam, then the moving out, then the hospital attachment, then the community placement, then the.. No I can't recall anymore.

I've aged so much in a month that my memory has deteriorated, I guess? Poor old lady. Sigh.

Anywhoo, last week on Thursday I had to make an emergency trip to Belfast. Yeah, emergency trip, Bella, yeah right.

Adam had his last paper on Wednesday (the day before) and was probably having the time of his life when he eventually came home to a.. Crying wife. Yes you heard me right. I was crying like mad on the phone, throwing tantrums out of homesickness, stress and everything you could ever imagine. I guess I've had too many things back to back with little or no break in between, and everything was bottling up til I decided that I've had enough. I just had to let go.

And boy I really did.

I ended up booking a flight ticket to Belfast first thing the next morning. And chose to hurt my bank account after hurting myself all these while. Pergh ayat drama habis. But yeah. Pukul 10pm nanges nanges, pukul 11pm beli tiket, pukul 8.30am the next day amek flight to Belfast. Perasaan macam airlines tu laki gua punya.

To be greeted by this.

Adam picked me up at the airport and surprised me with this in the car on the way back.

We haven't seen each other for more than a month.

Thus I cried. Again.

I was deeply touched.

No it's more than that. It's something words just can't describe.

So I won't try to.

And later, came the real deal.

A FREAKING KINDLE PAPERWHITE!

I've been forever contemplating if I should buy an e-reader but often gave myself lame excuses like nothing beats the paper smell of new books etc. But finally I got this from my husband for my birthday!

Albeit a little late. Yes, I know. But nevermind, a Kindle is a Kindle.

Well, Adam did ask what I want for my birthday, fair enough. But I cannot help but think that this is actually his gift as well. Because after this, I'd probably make less fuss of him watching Korea and playing online games, since I'll be tucked in my Kindle anyway.

Hurm.. Smells like a conspiracy there.

No one can hurt you without your consent.

Today is Ummi's birthday. 24th April. FYI she is 14 days younger than Ayah. Ayah was born on 10th April in the same year. So that makes them sebaya. Sebab tu la asyik nak challenge each other's opinion je. Cakap member sebaya. Kahkah.

Okay tak.

Me and Adam.. We're sebaya too. Except that I'm older than him YES I KNOW HOW SO NOT COOL IS THAT. We're four months apart though. Mine is 1st June (hint, people, hint!) and his is 1st October. So I'm older than him by four months. And that means he should call me unni or nuna or whatever. AND OBEY MY WORDS.

Except that he's the husband so I have to obey him more tsk.

Not the point though.

I remember on my whichever birthday some ancient years ago, Ayah gave me a book titled "Baitullah ke Nabilah." It's a collection of short stories (cerpens?). He also gave my brother, named Zahid, another book titled "Kisah Seorang Zahid".

Yes my father is so romantic like that.

But one thing I can never forget was on my twelfth birthday, when Ayah gave me a birthday present of I-can't-remember-what-it's-either-nerd-stuff-or-cool-ones. The message was the highlight of it.

"Happy birthday Nabilah. We love you. No one can hurt you without your consent."

At the age of twelve, the later part wasn't something I really thought about. Almost all my attention went to the "love" bit. Oh yes I'm a big sucker of love.

Now that I think of it.. Ayah is a big fan of "choices". He's a firm believer that whatever we have become today is a result of our own choices.

You choose to let it hurt you.

You choose to be sad.

You choose to do Medicine. 

(despite me insisting that it's my parents' choice, but in a way, I agreed to it, so it's my choice too)

You are responsible for your own choice.

Soo.. When he said "No one can hurt you without your consent", I guess he meant that when something happens, it's my choice to decide how to feel about it.

Things can't break you if you don't let them to.

I guess that's it. A birthday post for my Mum about me. Because I need all the love and attention and everything. Mihmih.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!

and..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AYAH!

YOU'RE MY MOST ULTIMATE BOYFRIEND EVER!

I'm all feeling mushy lovey dovey about this whole birthday thing and they sent me this makan besar picture. How nice.

October baby.

Hello October!

Three years gone and we still never get to spend this day together.

01/10/09 - He went to KASUKMA at Kolej MARA Kuala Nerang, I was at KMB
01/10/10 - He was in Belfast, while I was in Kuala Lumpur
01/10/11 - He was in Belfast, while I was in Leicester (we broke up anyway lol)
01/10/12 - He's in Belfast, I am.. Well.. Yeah no explanation needed.

Nothing cheesy or geli geli, I slept waaaay too early the day before. So no midnight wish as he always did to me. Guess I'm just too hopeless when it comes to being romantic and all. But well, he already got his birthday present, that should do it.

Back in 2009 when we first got together, we made a pact not to commit too seriously. We weren't really looking for some long term commitment so let's just take this easy. We were young, in love, and a little too adventurous, I think.

Now we've come this far, Alhamdulillah. Been through countless fights and arguments and silent treatments, and Alhamdulillah we're still as strong as we are.

Not to mention we are two very different people with very different views about the world, but that's a different story.

So here's to this man, who was once so allergic to the word 'commitment', who once thought he wouldn't settle down before the age of 35, who once thought girls are nuisances..

Well.. I'm so proud of myself for being able to prove that wrong lololol.

No, I'm so proud of you. Of us.

Happy birthday, young man. May all your fights and dreams in this world worth it.

And October, please be nice.

Call me maybe.

Last night KN had the thought that he was missing something.

Me.

No. My birthday.

Haha macam la aku kisah sangat kan. Zzz.

But really, he was making his sorry voice like, "Bellaaaaa... Sorrryyyyy.."

And I was like, "Kau nak apa? Aku baru bangun tido kot." 

At 10pm. Yes my eyes and brain have lost the sense of time so I slept as early as 6pm and woke up at 10pm. What a mess.

Well, then the usual thing, sorry, missed birthday, aku-ingat-je-tapi-aku-lost-track-of-date stuff (yes orang tengah CUTI kan pfft), sedar sedar dah 3rd June bla bla.

I was just listening macam orang mabuk, sebab baru bangun tidur. Zzz.

Then he said this,

"Aku rasa bersalah gila terlepas birthday kau tapi at the same time aku tau kau takkan marah sebab kau memang faham aku so lepas ni maybe aku buat lagi."

SERIOUSLY????

KN: Kalau jadi aku nak pergi US sometime next year ke. So kalau kau nak kirim pape bagitau lah. Kau kan suka Fossil. Dorang cakap Fossil murah kat sana.

Bella: Elok la tu. Birthday aku pun kau terlepas. So apa lagi.

KN: Maksud aku kirim kau bayar balik lah gila! Pehal nak birthday present sampai US??!

Bella: Thanks. (I made a promise not to ask for any birthday presents remember? HAHAHA padan muka)

And I called Izleen earlier this morning. She's back in Malaysia, counting days for her wedding (ARGH)

Izleen: Aku baca blog kau kikiki.

Bella: Mesti kau jealous kan Adam so sweeeeeet.

Izleen: Virtual gift kau kata sweet? Hahaha nanti aku amek gambar kad kawen aku hantar kat Skype kat kau. Baru sweet.

Bella: Blergh. Tau la nak kawen. Gedik. Eh KN cakap suruh simpan bunga telur untuk dia sebijik.

Izleen: Oh, cakap pasal KN, dia bagi apa hadiah birthday kau this time?

Bella: Hadiah la sangat. Wish pun tak. Zzz.

Izleen: Well obviously. Sebab kalau dia wish awal dia tau kau mintak hadiah dengan dia lepas tu dia kena beli hahahaha!

Bella: Mana ada. Dia tak tanya aku nak apa this time sebab dia tau nanti aku mintak iPad hahahahaha!

Meanwhile..

All the blank spaces are to be filled by inappropriate language. His language.

First of June.

I love June. Really. It feels like, waaahhh, we're in the second half of the year alreadyyy!

And nothing big has been achieved so far. 

-_______________-

First of June, four days left to ESA2, and here I am, doing ridiculous stuff like I've got all the time in the world.

1. Trying to make Adam come with me to Boyce Avenue gig in Birmingham on 16th June

Outcome: Unsuccessful due to his kesian text.

 2. Spending nearly 20 minutes sending him random texts while berguling bergolek dalam duvet sebelum tidur.
Outcome: Adam tak layan.

 3. Making fun of his typo when he sent an "O" without a "K", hence the OPQRST..
Outcome: He shoo-ed me to go study.

Then I kept sending him old pictures of me, and he replied,

Guess what picture?

Yes, a virtual birthday gift! How sweeeeet! Zzz. Okay no he actually sent another picture of us which I think was really sweet "perfectly describing my feeling towards you now" as he claimed. But well, yes, his feeling is for me to know so I'll keep it to myself. (geli eh)

But just in case you still don't get what's happening, well here's the thing, it's my birthday. I'm not a big fan of parties and celebration (because I'm a nerd like that) so today is just like another day. Except everything went wrong, like how I am so serabut with my own room, and I suddenly got the overwhelming sadness of not being able to attend Izleen's wedding when everyone is expecting me to be the bridesmaid. Dude, I can't! I'm not even home yet that time! T_T So I decided I've had enough of the day and went to bed at about 6-ish pm. Again, because I'm boring like that.

Only to be woken up by these people who decided they've had enough of squeezing their brains out for exams. A SURPRISE MAKAN MAKAN! Kak Hana was the mastermind, no wonder yesterday she went out all the way redah hujan going to get some chicken for BBQ, and kept telling me to go upstairs to study when the fact was she wanted to marinade the chicken and I was always around in the kitchen!

The supporting casts were Kak Dina, Nadd, Intan, Abil, Puteri and Hana. 

Came all the way to surprise me. THANK YOU :')

Only to duduk bersila awal awal untuk makan, walhal me myself pun mamai lagi bangun tidur -.-

Birthday gift of the day would be this.

Lecture MSK. Musculoskeletal System. Because he's a nerd too. Heh.

No I won't ask for an iPad 3 from anyone. No I won't. I will not. I promise I won't.

Like what I did for my birthday last year.

Life goes on. So must you.

I'm afraid that's your problem.

I know, and I can't simply tell them because it would be very selfish. And immature.

Then start looking for someone new.

But I don't want to. It's not like you find someone new and you move on. No it doesn't simply work like that.

Sekali lagi, menerima kemungkinan untuk kehilangan sesuatu yang dianggap sebahagian daripada kehidupan sendiri bukan mudah. Dalam masa yang sama terasa diri seakan begitu lemah dan menyedihkan apabila definisi 'kehidupan' sedikit sebanyak disandarkan pada orang lain. Get a life. Kehidupan sendiri. Di mana kaki ini boleh berdiri tanpa perlu berpaut pada sesuatu. Di mana bibir ini boleh menguntum senyum tanpa perlu mencari sebab zahir. Lagipun bukankah bahagia itu datangnya dari hati? 

Maka pegangan ego "people come and leave" mahupun "nothing lasts forever" terus hilang entah ke mana, digantikan dengan perasaan insecure dan neurotic. Please. Don't go.

Hidup. Dan bukan sekadar bernafas kosong dari hari ke hari.

 Happy Birthday, dude. Let's do Europe after this.

And make these faces in front of Eiffel Tower.

Here's to my pretty one;

Happy Birthday.

I love you.

Leenophile sp.

You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you, and then you meet one person and your life has changed. Forever.

JAMIE RANDALL (JAKE GYLLENHAAL) | LOVE & OTHER DRUGS

Kalau boleh kawen dengan dia, dah lama kita kawen dengan dia tau. Bukan sebab perasaan cinta atau apa, tapi sebab dia kenal kita inside out, and kitorang sangat comfortable in everything.

Masalahnya tak boleh kawen.

I'm not too sure how we really clicked in the first place. I think we had some sort of misunderstanding, where people kinda thought we were actually in cold war. Of course, the power of gossips were proven to be very strong that time, because I had this uneasy feeling whenever I saw her. Until one day she invited me to have her Secret Recipe Carrot Cake her brother bought for her birthday. Being an innocent passerby, I just went downstairs joining the crowd (and be awkward).

Why do I stress on the Secret Recipe Carrot Cake? Because the cake never failed to remind me of her every time I see it. Until now. And that's one of the most significant memories of her that I have.

We are two very different things. She once said, kawan3 kau semua pun lain dengan kau, kan? True. In fact the same goes to my other half. As for her, she's very clingy, the type you can't leave alone to survive. Me on the other hand, enjoy solitude. I appreciate my time alone, especially when I can be very independent and do things on my own. Which is so not her.

But with her, I don't mind. In fact, I like it when she asks me to be around, to come with her, etc. And yes, all our wall posts, comments on Facebook aren't made up. I've grown used to it. And loving it. When people say can't we just be normal, without the geli3-ish words yayang yayang thingy, well, that's normal to us.

And I love it when people acknowledge us. Thee was one time a friend was asking about her, and his words were "Kau pegi dengan sape? Yayang kau?"

LOL. Yayang siap. Sometimes I do wonder what people think when they read our conversation. But heck with that.

Not sure about others, but to me, there are different kinds of friends in my life. The one you update daily, the one who you haven't met in more than a year, but once you see each other again, you can spill everything like water, the one who can give you countering facts and cold hard truths (which you can't be with all the time, else you get annoyed), the one who can listen and don't give a damn, just listen, the one who you can go out and have a cup of teh tarik lepak mamak randomly without plans, and such.

Well, she's the one I update daily. Sometimes when I have some random things in mind, like a song lyric or something, I'll just text her. Kadang3 kejut subuh lah, wish good morning lah. Walhal dah tau pun dia takde kredit nak reply. Tapi suka je? She's my partner in being random. In my planning. In my everything.

We made promises (kinda) that if we get married (to different men of course), we will still have our place to run to kalau merajuk dengan husband masing3. Kalau dalam drama Melayu cakap "Awak hantar saya balik rumah mak saya!", we would say "Awak hantar saya balik rumah best friend saya!" LOL.

She is, in fact, a place to run to. A safe place. A home.

To one extent I don't know what I'll be doing without her. Tak pernah lagi terfikir boleh sayang kawan macam tu, but true, she makes me think that I want to see her in the hereafter. Boleh tak? KAWAN tu. Siap doa boleh jumpa dalam syurga lagi.

Happy 20th Birthday Izleen. I love you.

Who's your comfort zone?

He's one of my comfort zones.

Blurred pictures credit to Shahir.

Be careful with what you wish cause you just might get it.

He picked me up at home and took me to the clinic as I wasn't quite well on that day. I couldn't care less on how I looked, I was a total mess - selekeh and pucat gila. My voice was abnormally husky as I was having flu from the night trip before.

On our way back from the clinic..

"Weh mana wallet aku? Takde lah!" Sambil raba3 dalam pocket tak jumpa.

"Kau biar betul, takbawak ke tertinggal kat klinik tadi?"

"Aku tak sure. Try tengok dalam dashboard tu, mana tau aku letak situ."

Sambil selongkar dashboard punya compartment apa tah. "Takde lah. Ada kotak ni je, dengan apa tah lagi benda lain. mana ada wallet."

"Try tengok jap dalam kotak tu, kadang3 aku sorok kat situ, sebab taknak bagi orang amek."

Sambil membebel tak puas hati rasa macam nak lempang je dia. "Kau pehal sorok wallet dalam kotak? Gila tak senonoh wallet letak la dalam poket bla bla OOOOOKAAAAYYYYYY.."

"Happy Belated Birthday Bella."




SPEECHLESS.




Silent.





"Weh yang kau diam pehal, kalau nak speechless pun sikit3 suda!"



Now that's how I got my first Apple for my 21st birthday. An iPod Touch. From my very own best friend - KN.

As the saying goes, be careful with what you wish cause you just might get it.

My very first Apple on my 21st birthday.

*** Especially for Ara yang sangat curious dengan cinta baru Bella ***

Meet my new mutual love.

Eceh nak Facebook aje.

But the most important fact about this love is...

Yes, he's the twin brother I never had :')

Full story will come later. Off to East Coast after a weekend in the North ;)

You're not here but it's okay. (the perfect summer song)

A sentimental person I am (geligeli), I still keep the first text sent to me from my friends abroad when they first took off last August/September. I still have those from Belfast, Dublin, Newcastle, Leicester, Cork, USA, Manipal, Bangalore, Jakarta, mana3 je lah. Note that I wrote the cities/places rather than countries because I want to make them look many HAHAH :D Takpe, perempuan memang suka exaggerate.

But few days back, I received one from a stranger number. It's from New Zealand! From my sayang - Ciah (pronounced as Chee-Ahhh) Er. Asal kalau type bunyi cam pelik ek? Ish. But she didn't sound so good. And her text made me realize how much I missed her since we last met during IB. She didn't come to graduation so we haven't had the chance to meet after that.

And kebetulan the day she text me was actually Zai's birthday (11th April). Wah lagi touching der. Kerinduan macam ugh.

Baru perasan yang kitorang suka camwhore closeup. Tapi Ciah comel dow. Sumpah taktipu.

And this is the three of us - matching all black. Tak plan langsung, sangat kebetulan. Naluri beradik la katakan.

We have nicknames for the three of us. Ikan bilis, ikan masin, ikan keli, ikan apa lagi entah. Rasanya bukan kitorang je, entah siapa3 lagi M08A dapat nama ikan tu. But we were siblings with Zai as the eldest. And we had Ridhu as our foster Mom (jadi mak okay, bukan bapak, itu memang taktahan). Then there's Adam. Since Ridhu and Adam were so inseparable, I had to fight with him to win Adam. Sikit3 gaduh dengan Ridhu pasal Adam sayang siapa lebih. Ridhu cakap Bella anak derhaka, nak rampas bapak sendiri. Bella cakap Ridhu sangap, dengan anak pun jealous. Alkisahnya, anak dengan mak berebut lelaki. LOL. Mesti korang tak faham apa yang aku tulis an? -.-"

Tapi gambar paling mahal --- inilah.

Bella dan Ciah diskodeng oleh Zai. Kantoi belakang blok buat kerja3 macam nih.

To my dearest Zayana,

Happy 21st Birthday. Birthday present tunggu balik Malaysia okay.

You're not here but it's okay.

Alamak. I rindu korang lah. Tsssk.

Rindu lagi. Pfft.