Thursday, September 29, 2011

The third day of my medical career.

Semalam.. Hari gembira.

It all started when I called Yana and she was like, SPEECHLESS when she heard my voice, and I was like, NAK NANGES when I heard hers. We both were like, FINALLY.. For some, this might be nothing big, but for us, to be in the same time zone again, in fact, the same country, means more than anyone could think. She rang back realizing that she could better make use of her free calls rather than draining my credit. Even when I was back in Malaysia, she called from time to time, just to check on me since she hardly went online on Skype and I didn't have my FB back then. The call lasted for almost an hour and she kept on asking, macamana nak pergi Leicester, naik bas ke train ke. And I was like, Leicester takde pape, dia kecik je and everything within walking distance. But what touched me the most was, "Bella dah kat sini, makin ramai la orang kat sini, SUKAAA! And mestilah pergi Leicester at least sekali, Leicester kot." Paling tak tahan bila dia cakap, "Nanti nak tanya B macamana nak pergi Leicester, tak pun nak ikut je dia." HAHA :D B is actually someone in Newcastle whose girlfriend is in Leicester. Cute much, no? Yana Yana :')

Then Izleen buzzed on Skype, after aaaaaages of MIA since there's no Internet at her place. Apa lagi. Spill lah. We both have like, GAZILLIONS of things to spill, and we kept on rambling Skyping til I became veeeery sleepy that I decided to go to bed. And as usual, macam biasalah kalau Skype dengan Leen, gelak macam hantu, then menangis macam orang gila, lepas tu masing masing stare at each other tak cakap apa apa. Yang kelakar is bila dia happy, and I was feeling pretty low, and she kept asking, takpe ke. As if takpe ke kalau dia bahagia masa I tengah down. Haha comel gila. Well you can't stop someone from being happy when they deserve it just because you're not, kan? I am happy for her. NANGES.

The day went pretty much as usual. The lectures, group work and such. But it ended at 1 and my group decided not to continue with discussion at 2! Now how awesome is that? So basically after 1, we were free to go. I headed home alone, bawak all the handbooks berat gila but I was feeling extremely jovial that I sang along while walking. Ya Allah, semalam sangat bahagia. Syukurrr.

And have I mentioned how bright and sunny yesterday was? 

"It's exceptionally warm and sunny today, right?" Dr. H while greeting me at the hallway in the morning.

Later in the afternoon around 2 something, I went to town alone. This time snapping pictures here and there, going to meet Nad and Faizul to open a bank account.

Alone. And I have never felt this free and easy.

And I managed not to sesat at all! Wow, satu pencapaian Bella dan jalan.

So we met at HSBC, and it took merely half an hour during the whole account opening thing and wallaaa, I'm done! The bank officer was very pleasant and he kept on saying how Malaysia is in his list of countries. Tak tau kalau dia just nak ambil hati ke apa, but surely, that made my day more than ever.

I just love the day.

Then while waiting for Nad and Faizul at Lloyds, I took my solitary walk, jalan sorang3 masuk all the kedai and everything, and finally Primark. Got myself a pair of a not so cantik selipar rumah, but very comfy, and again, they made me happy.

Lepas jumpa Nad and Faizul, we went everywhere we could, randomly entering stores and all. We went to Pound Stretcher, Argos and many other kedai, especially the Pound World, Pound Land and such where everything is one pound. Haha what a cheapskate!

And we walked home feeling extremely penat but satisfied an all of us agreed, the day was a happy day.


Jarrom Street, where my second home is.


LRI - Leicester Royal Infirmary


Clock Tower



Sounds familiar, anyone?

H&M and Primark

Inside Primark

Nad and Faizul

Jason Mraz in town

Argos, household heaven

T-Mobile, O2, Orange, Vodafone, Three, they're all dekat dekat. Rivals.

Poundland where everything is 1 pound



Self-portrait in the mirror! *proud* 8)

Orang orang berjasa tolong angkat barang. Thanks korang :')

Beautiful disaster

Simple things make me happy - door hook from Argos

Phase 1 Handbook o.O

Happiness factor - I finally got myself a mirror!

And lastly..

A leopard-print 'throw'. It matches the duvet perfectly. Complete happiness!

Coming back from town, someone said something on Facebook which made my heart leapt to cloud nine. Rasa macam, nak nangis there and then. It's not like, gembira yang ecstatic. It's more like, THANK YOUUUU, you really made my day. And I feel loved. Especially now when things are very rough and the uncertainties are killing me to bits. 

Harus kuat!

Thank you Allah for this amazing life I have. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

First day at uni.

Feels like sharing this.

Lampu putih beli kat Argos. Bulb bawak dari Malaysia hoyeayeah. Duvet asal rumah ni.

Lampu bilik asal (kat siling). I orang Melayu, lampu kuning mengantuk lew nanti.

Semangat first day registration kat uni dengan seniors (lah sangat)  AJ and Lyn.

Awan nano Leicester. 

The best thing about the first day was.. The PRANK! Yeah they actually played a prank on us, the first year Medics! On the last talk, there was this one lecturer giving us a lecture on Emergency Medicine. Yeah, dengar pun macam dah, APAKAH? I went in around 7 minutes late sebab berlari larian kejar surau last sekali miss jugak -_-, me and Intan. Masuk masuk je semua muka serius, pegang pen menulis segala. And that's in Lecture Theater 2 (LT2)! LT2 is where the lecturer is played live on screen, while LT1 is where the lecturer really is. So kerja kerja point orang semua kat LT1 lah. In a way, we were safe. But still, lecturer can still see us in LT2 through webcam.

So this bitchy little lecturer was rambling on Emergency Medicine, playing slides with alien terms in them and asking questions to the students in LT1. She kept on making sarcastic remarks like, "Let see if your brain matches your look" and such, demanding on more people to answer her questions. Thing was, there were actually students who raised up their hands and and answered! Sometimes she's right, true, but not enough yadda yadda. And at times she just pointed to random people. CUAK GILA WEH. And whenever the pointed student answered correctly, giving us scary terms, we were like, HOW ON EARTH DOES S/HE KNOW THAT? ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW IT AS WELL? Even us in LT2 kept exchanging weird glances. And the lecturer was like, YOU ARE FIRST YEAR MEDICS, COME ON!

Cuak gila nak mati serius tak tipu.

And finally..

Every freaking student who spoke and gave answers in the lecture was acting!

 And here goes, our bitchy annoying little lecturer. Damn she's good.

First day at uni. What a day.

Monday, September 26, 2011

From KLIA to Heathrow.

So here I am, in Leicester, United Kingdom, negara yang diidam-idamkan sejak dulu tanpa diketahui sebabnya =.=

While many others complained about their flights, I had a wonder 13-hour journey, starting from KLIA itself. My cargo luggage weighed 32.9kg, my cabin luggage was 12kg while my backpack was killing me with its 6kg fillings. Do the Maths. I was like, carrying the whole lot of my room in Malaysia to UK. Most of them were stationeries. They alone weighed around 8kg. Okay okay jangan tanya I pun tak tauapa yang berat sangat sampai 8kg tu. But hey, they make me happy. And you can't leave something that makes you feel safe and happy, right? Better yet, they don't yell back at you, they don't argue, and they let you do things to them unconditionally. There goes, your lifetime companion - stationeries and art tools.

A bit of a trick, if your luggage weighs heavier than it is supposed to, do check-in early. Sometimes they allow few kg extras, if you're lucky. I checked in a bit later, and had to argue pompangpompang so that they could let my luggage in. Not good.

But good thing they don't timbang your cabin bag, so bring as banyak and berat as you can manage, and when I say MANAGE, yes, mana yang mampu. Jangan semangat sumbat semua in the end terkial kial gelabah nak bawak beg mana satu.

I didn't cry at the airport. Not a single tear. I don't know why. I couldn't feel a thing. Not excited, not sad, and nothing to look forward too. Now that's a very sad case. So adik adik yang nak fly, please please, at least feel something before you take off. Because not feeling anything is not a good sign, and not fun either.

I got an aisle seat in the aircraft, 31H. But I hate aisle seat so much because you have to sit right next to people lalu lalang, even the cabin crews, which annoys me like gila. So I switched with Nad, she took the aisle seat while I took the middle seat, which still, tak puas hati sebab I want the window seat so that I could avoid people. But then, Nad is a fun person to be with, so I had fun.

There's this inflight supervisor, Mr. Lim who randomly talked to us while jalan jalan dalam flight like a boss. And he found me interesting. Yes, INTERESTING. I guess I was menyampuk banyak sangat and I was really annoying to him that he kept on dropping by at our seat just to menyakat us. Well, he started flying even before I was born, so.. Tak berapa muda, although quite good looking. Damn lupa nak tanya if he has a son =.=

Him: So you're doing Medicine, what do you plan to major in?
Me: I haven't thought about it yet. Let's see how the demand goes first.
Him: Smart move. I think you should do psychiatric.
Me: Really? Okay I'll take that into consideration.
Him: Wait a second, I think instead of Medicine, you should be doing Law. You'll make a very good lawyer.
Me: *buat buat terkejut* Really? And why is that?
Him: Nowadays it's very hard to find someone to have a nice fun conversation with. Especially younger ones. Most of them don't know what to talk about. And they don't really reply. But I find you very interesting.
Me: Well, thank you, I take that as a compliment. But talk about the weather, why not? Safe topic. It's universal. Anyone can talk weather.
Him: You just went from fun to boring. *walked away*

I'm used to random strangers giving such remarks. You should do Law. Ever considered doing Law? You talk too much that you'll be a good lawyer. Yadda yadda.

And by that, I mean ultimate random stranger. Belum masuk teachers, families, friends lagi.

Okay enough on Law, I'm here in Leicester, jap lagi kena register kat School of Medicine. So... Shush!

This is a very long post I know. But I'm in dire need to distract myself from some extreme emotional turbulence, which has nothing to do with being abroad rather than home. 

But for now.. Here goes..

Orang orang Leicester, Heathrow Airport, London, United Kingdom

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Hi, my name is Bella.

And I'm feeling pretty (:

Cinta ini.

Life is all about choices.

And choices are supposed to change your life.

When you have decided, you haven't really forgotten the road not taken.

Neither have you moved on.

You just..


What could have happened if you have decided differently.

And not knowing hurts.

More than bitter truth.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Wall of heart.

Feeling strong and acting like one are two very different things.

And not easy either.

But too much hurt will make you immune.


And that's a good thing, right?

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Sometimes it lasts in love. Sometimes it hurts instead.

“Besides the obvious difference, there was not much distinction between losing a best friend and losing a lover: it was all about intimacy. One moment, you had someone to share your biggest triumphs and fatal flaws with; the next minute, you had to keep them bottled inside. One moment, you'd start to call her to tell her a snippet of news or to vent about your awful day before realizing you did not have that right anymore; the next, you could not remember the digits of her phone number.” 
― Jodi Picoult

"Nevermind I'll find someone like you." --- Adele

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

iMazed - An iPod iCeption.

Terus nak cari lagi 2 iPod laju laju.

Blogger App for iOS.

Hehehohohuihueheee. Jakun gila.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

The escapism.


Noun: The tendency to seek distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, esp. by seeking entertainment or engaging in fantasy.

The escapist