How do you go around breaking the heart(s) of the person(s) you love with all your life?
There's no price you can pay for your parents' love. To go around purposely making your own selfish decision intentionally breaking their hearts is not a choice. You can be sorry for all your life, and still not make up to it.
They say, "Do what you love, follow your heart."
I say, bullshit.
Suck it up. Life isn't just about you.