Sunday, April 25, 2010

everything i can't be is everything you should be; and that's why i need you here with me.

okay okay. sorry. i've got quite a bunch of off-blogger remarks on my previous post. saying that i sounded too arrogant or cocky or bitchy or whatever you want to say it. hey it's not like you're a celebrity or what, so what's with the approval3 thingy?

hah, amek kau. tu la. perasan sangat.

but really, is it wrong to have that kind of thought? i mean, yes, i have a facebook account. i have friends. i uploaded pictures. i write comments. i vandal walls. funny, i even have my very own blog. funnier, it's not even private. funniest, i don't quite like it when people bug me, when a blog is where you blurt (almost) everything out. and it is meant to be shared, for god sake!

what the hell am i crapping?

i've had people commenting on how different i am in reality compared to what i write in blog. i have to admit, to some extent, it is true. on the outside, i am very much a bubbly person, and i can annoy people within the first five minutes of the first conversation. i smile a lot. i laugh like a witch. one minute, i can just talk for hours to strangers.

the next minute, you'll find me sitting at the most isolated dark seat in LRC. or walking alone with my head down and earphones stuck to my ears, unaware of the people around me. or buried in novel at my seat as if i'm gonna swallow that thing in less than five seconds.

truth is, i tend to shut myself down when i'm in crowd.

in other word- no, i'm not fun.

so again, please stop adding me on fb, like really3 after me on fb, because you know i just won't approve. hahah, ade jugak iklan.

ps. those who left remarks/footsteps/comments whether on or off-the-blog, thanks. you guys are the best. especially to the silent readers (you know who you are)

stalk me more;)


.Am-OH-Am. said...

seem like i'm one of ur silent reader.
*have to admit it*

bella said...

dah tak silent C: