maybe if my heart stops beating it won't hurt this much.

not even 24 hours passed, i think i'm already shattered. if tears can be crystallized, then by now i should be having a dream castle, all crystal clear, with a stream of tears flowing beneath my feet.

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'and certainly We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to the patient ones'

[al-baqarah 2:155]

in authentic hadith, the Prophet (pbuh) said:

'and now what has befallen you was not going to miss you, and that which missed you was not ment to befall you'.

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