Saturday, March 25, 2017

Seed: 28 weeks.

I've always wanted to write a whole post on being pregnant - this time not so much focusing on Seed, but rather, ME.

1. Of gaining weight.

One of my biggest fears of pregnancy is gaining weight. Yes, weight. Both my mum and sister are on the chunkier side - imagine the pressure. Yes, I never had any weight issues growing up, but man am I scared of gaining weight..

And my mum used to tell me that she weighed way less than I did pre-pregnancy. Lagi lah pressure kau. And to be veeery honest, I take pride of my figure. I did not just magically have toned abs (not six-packs!) - I planked, I ran, I did crunches for years. I even went on healthy diet at some point, ha! So yes, I can honestly say I was quite fit pre-pregnancy, despite being on the rather 'small' side.

I've not gained massive weight so far on this pregnancy just yet, but I really am scared. For someone who's never had any weight issue, my fear of gaining weight can be rather irrational..

2. Of stretch marks.

Again, this one.. I did a whole lot of research at the early stages of pregnancy. Even considered buying high-end creams with a hefty price tag in an effort to 'prevent' them! But sooner than later I learned that stretch marks are mainly genetics. And luck. Some people never had one, some had it in first trimester. My mum definitely had them, although I'm sure having 5 children plays a role in that matter. I succumbed to the fact that there's not much that can be done about it, so mehh, let's just embrace it. I still, religiously put creams on my tummy - Diprobase emolient, no less, because we had a heck of 500g bottle of that stuff when Adam had some skin rash last year. Alhamdulillah, not a streak of line (apart from linea nigra, that's some serious strange business man!!).

To be fair I did have a habit of applying lotions on my skin after every shower pre-pregnancy, not sure if that contributes.

3. Of uncomfortable sleeps.

Adam and I.. We're both independent sleepers (more so me than him). Which means we don't really cuddle to sleep with the exception of some midnight cuddles when we're both half-asleep. But man.. Do I crave to have the whole bed to myself.

There was a time when Adam did his night shift over the weekend, and I have to admit I loved the 3 nights that I got the whole bed to myself. It's just impossible to be comfortable with such growing bump - and having another person sharing the bed doesn't really help.

I feel bad saying this, but honestly, the thought of going to bed doesn't equate to being well-rested, no matter how tired I already am. And every now and then I end up sleeping in the lounge surrounded by a bunch of thick duvets on the floor - all the space I can get to roll around!

4. Of random twinges of pain and discomfort.

Getting up from the chair is uncomfortable. Peeing is uncomfortable. Putting on the socks can be a struggle. And worst of all, waking up from lying down, man, that's serious business.

Heck my tummy feels so stretched and tight even now as I'm typing this.

It's about 15-minute walk to hospital where I work, and it's an uphill walk. Not the most pleasant walk unfortunately.

5. Of drinking for England.

On one occasion, I couldn't feel Seed moving very much. Had to get myself checked out by the midwife, and I turned out to be very dehydrated. Since then I've been drinking for England. And peeing like a tap too.

I don't know what is it about pregnancy but I never seem to be getting enough fluid intake. The moment I felt good about my drinking habit, my pee was still dark yellow. I mean, come on, I've had 1.5L in already!

And yes, hello midnight bathroom trips. There was a time I was so knackered in the morning as I had to get up 4-5 times at night to pee just because I've been drinking a gallon during the evening. I kinda learn the trick now - drink like a champ during the day, even if that means going to the toilet after seeing each patient on ward round (can be hilarious), and then limit myself to one cup in the evening. Of course, the moment I wake up in the morning, the pee would still be dark, but heck, mommy need that 8-hr minimum sleep.

6. Of loneliness.

They say motherhood can be a lonely journey. They never said anything about pregnancy. I cannot help but feel so alone sometimes. Unless you've been pregnant before, you would never know how it feels to carry a >5kg bump 24/7. I didn't. I used to think, ahh look at those pregnant ladies, all glowing and smiling. I always thought pregnant women are beautiful. But I don't feel like one, how come? I'm all puffed up, my eye bags alone might have contributed to 1kg of the weight gain. The loneliness.. Is real. They say pregnancy is not a disease. I agree, but it's "normal" to a whole new level. It's the strangest physiological thing that can ever happen to your body.

A lot of times.. It's between you and baby and God.

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This was written when I was at 28w. Didn't get to finish it then (typical!). I'm waaay beyond that now, so you might want to multiply the above by 1.25 or something. I'm heavier, bumpier, slower - everything you can ever imagine.

BUT,

I'm more contented too. (Surprise!). Somehow knowing that the baby's growing nice and healthy.. And realising that we're going to meet him sooner than later.. That, my friends, is such an indescribable feeling. Every kick, every swish, every roll, every Braxon Hicks (!!), means we're a step closer. And that is always something to be grateful for.

10 comments:

Syanat 3 said...


افضل اسطول مهندسين متخصصين فى صيانة كاريير وتمتع بافضل الخدمات من توكيل صيانة فيليبس زوروا موقعنا الان

almyaa almyaa said...


من خلال توكيل صيانة يونيفرسال تواصل مع خدمة العملاء ليصلك فريق الدعم الفنى الى باب المنزل فى اسرع وقت مع الحصول على ضمان مركز خدمة يونيفرسال على صيانة كافة الاجهزة الكهربائية .. اتصل بنا الان

Egy Help said...


اقوى خدمات الصيانة المقدمة من فريق عمل صيانة كريازى للاجهزة الكهربائية فقط تمتع الان باقوى الخصومات على قطع الغيار الاصلية فقط تواصل مع رقم مركز خدمة صيانة كريازى تواصل معنا الان لتتعرف على المزيد من خدماتنا

swaqny Co said...
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swaqny Co said...

الان فى تصميم مواقع على افضل مستوى الان ونقدم افضل تصميم المواقع على اعلى مستوى الان فى مصر من شركة سوقنى التى تقدم افضل ما لديها الان فى كافة المحافظات وباقل الاسعار التى لا احد يقوم الان فى مصر

Syanat 3 said...

الان يمكنكم الحصول على اهم الصيانات فى مصر الان وباقل الاسعار من صيانة تكنوجاز الان التى تقدم افضل ما لديه ,وباقل الخصومات التى لا مسيل لها الان من صيانة باناسونيك ايضا الان , وباقل الاسعار الممكن

almyaa almyaa said...

يمكنكم الان الحصول على افضل الخصومات المختلفة التى نقدمة الان فى العديد من الخصومات لمختلفة التى نقدمة الان من صيانة الكتروستار التى تقدم العديد من المميزات والخصومات المختلفة

3nod Makka said...

تعرف الان على شركة تنظيف خزانات بمكة التى تقدم العديد من المميزات المختلفة الان فى المملكة العربية السعودية التى تقدم العديد من المميزات المختلفة التى لا احد يقوم بتقديمة الان ويوجد لدينا العديد من الخصومات لان ويوجد لدينا الان تنظيف خزانات بمكة الان ويوجد لدينا اقوى فريق مدرب على اعلى مستوى

Unknown said...

يمكنكم الان التواصل مع افضل شركة امن وحراسة فى مصر التى تقدم العديد من الخصومات المختلفة التى لا احد يقدمة الان , ونقدم ايضا شركة حراسات خاصة التى تقدم الان العديد من الخصومات الرائعة التى لا احد يقوم الان

happy home said...

اعمال مكافحة الحشرات من خلال شركتنا المتميزه في اعمال ابادة الحشرات افضل شركة مكافحة حشرات بالقصيم علي اعلي مستوي من التميز في العمل استمتع ايضا افضل شركة عزل خزانات بالقصيم باقل سعر في المملكة العربيه السعوديه سوف تجد من خلال شركتنا الكثير من الاعمال المتميزه افضل شركة عزل اسطح بالقصيم علي اعلي جوده سوف تقوم الشركة الان بعمل الكثير من التقنيات المتطوره مع افضل شركة كشف تسربات المياه بالقصيم بالمملكة علي اعلي جوده من التميز