Sunday, March 28, 2010

disappointment has a name.

what do you do when the person you love the most breaks your heart?

do you go around and tell them?

or would you prefer to keep it to yourself because you know that loving should mean that you accept the person as they are?

having someone who has all the access to the deepest part of you is dangerous.

it can either make you, or break you.

worse, you don't know which one it is doing.

ps. we are all normal human beings. there are times we deserve to be hurt, to be misunderstood, to be ignored. (or maybe to be cheated)
the world does not revolve around you, honey.

i know you don't read blogs, but this one is for you because i don't have the heart to tell you that i honestly think that you're better off without him. it seems that everyone else has the same thought, too. (and oh, stop wishing to do IB like me, you idiot)

Saturday, March 20, 2010

the sister i never had.

i am never fond of tags. i found tags lame. but since one of my besties indirectly accidentally tagged me, i'm like, FINE. i'll do it.

so here's for you, pretty.

Rules: Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer.

1. i am..
and insane.

2. i really wanna go to..
united kingdom. studying. medicine. (urgh, why there are fullstops here and there?)

3. my favourite place..
KLCC park. at night-specifically. i'm always amazed by the lights. sometimes i can just sit and stare at the the towers doing nothing.. it makes me look jakun, though. it's the n-th time i went there, but still, i'm stunned. it always struck me, kalau manusia boleh cipta menatang alah sebesaq setinggi tu, ALLAH yang cipta manusia, apa lagi?? SUBHANALLAH.

4. my favourite thing..
fine. he's not even a 'thing'. but i learnt that the best things in life are actually NOT THINGS.
(and sorry nabilah, this picture is not taken on google image, because when i googled his name, there's only his profile picture on fb that appeared. bosan ah)

5. my favourite drink..
anything chocolatey. okay, bullshit. everyone knows i love coffee more than anything in this world. it's my elixir of life! (boo bella, boo) but since i would love to have babies more, then i give up coffee-ing. so sad.

6. my favourite food..
sushi. anything japanese.

7. my favourite colour..
black. obviously. he even said once, "i think you should stop wearing black.." but i just can't! i feel safe in black. look slimmer. and taller. (now there goes my dirty lil secret) gaaahhhh.

8. i live in..
my own world. ignore the cuteness. or even the pigs. i just live in wy own world. others, shoo shoo! (or oink oinkk??)

9. i was born in..
a labour room. (here's to aiman, my classmate;)

10. my school or college..
when i typed SECLUDED, this thing appeared. i wonder why KMB was not included in the search. must complaint to google!

11. my favourite story..
i don't care. i still stand for this. you can say a thousand splendid sun is way way way better or what. but i'm still sticking to this. this VERY THIS! (emo la plak)
"for you a thousand times over"

12. my favourite hobby..
crapping. ou yes. that's why you're reading this. they are all junks and CRAPS! (gambaq cam lam blog ahuyy la plak)

13. i want to be..
RICH. yes, money matters baby! $$$

anyways nabilah, i tried very very hard not to appear to be copying you. especially the book part, the colour part, the coffee part.. but apparently GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE (and fools seldom differ). i heart you, hun.

ps. that trivia of your is incomplete, dear.

"burung kasawari bernafas melalui bontot kalau kepalanya terbenam dalam pasir."

OMG now i'm crapping about this ostrich. shoot me. dang.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

they should change from P to N for NOOB.

for the first time ever, i drove a car with someone else in it, other than my family, and, of course, him. this time it's ridhu - our classmate, college mate, his roommate, his deskmate, his former schoolmate, and everyone's soulmate??? (boohooo)
(picture stolen from fb. now you know what fb can do to you)
don't get me wrong, i thought this picture of him is cute^^

and i got honked twice. yes, TWICE. both by pakcik-yang-macam-dah-pissed-off-sangat-kau-bawak-kete-cam-haram.

nobody ever honked at me before. yes, absolutely NOBODY. i know i'm not quite a good driver - no, i pretty much sucks at it. but at least i've managed to arrived at destinations safely. in time. and more importantly, i have never get myself in trouble by getting involved in accident!

jatuh ego jap kne hon ngan pakcik uh. tambah lagi ridhu kat belakang. tercalar maruah weh!

and i got my driving lessons while ridhu watching and listening, and of course, L A U G H I N G H I S A S S O F F .(jage kau dhu)

jangan press minyak kuat sangat masa mula3 nak start jalan lepas berhenti kat traffic light. hang bukan nak p race ka apa, chill3 sudaa. when the rpm (or whatever the name is) increases, more fuel is consumed. and if possible, don't let the rpm exceeds 4 or you'll piss off the owner of the car. (that if you're driving someone else's car, obviously)

don't accelerate or press the minyak lagi when you see the traffic light ahead is red, turning red, or yellow. hang tu baru bawak keta, karang gelabah, mampauih. tp jangan la break awai sangat. bak kate ridhu, start brek uh, da boley cukup jemaah 40 orang jarak dengan kete depan. bile da brenti plak, jauh gila. again, 5 jenazah boley muat kat tengah3 uh. (ridhu's analogy has always sounded ridiculously true)

don't mencelah masuk lane orang abruptly. this will cause you to be honked, yelled, or even better, cursed. and tell your backseat driver, dont give confusing instructions, or you'll end up panicking on the road, not knowing where to go.

when taking a U-turn, be sure to pull your steering wheel to the max. don't pull it like, one at a time. the car will move like semput3, and the last thing you want is to look like an idiot in front of the other drivers (or even your passengers). even better, have someone sitting next to you controlling the steering wheel, and you just have to take care of the pedals. heeeee.

there are a lot more, but for now i can only think of these.

ps. camwhoring is allowed while driving - but only if you have 5mp camera that captures the awesomeness of the event.

(okay, picture taken while parking. kantoi)

note to my passenger: i might be a noob when it comes to driving. but at least, i have a driving license, okay. and you should be grateful (at least buatlah kenduri kesyukuran) that we arrived masjid biru safely. sila jangan serik lagi naik kereta dengan sy okay;)

and dear you,
thanks for still letting the P sign to stick to your car, and be an eyesore to you. i hope it will remain there until this may, after i officially become an adult on the road:)

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

i feel stupid if i speak in malay. pukepuke.

izin laluan untuk menghancurkan bahasa ibunda, sy tengah kebingungan kebengongan buat IRP note malay (which sy takbace satu pun lagi novel3 uh), maka sy rase sgtlah tensi dan frust, apetah lagi selepas dikantoikan oleh cg azha kerane tidak membaca LAGAK WASANGKA langsung. busuk gila weh kantoi. sumpah taktipu.
sy tau entry bahasa ibunda sy kedengaran sangat bangang, tapi takmengapelah. sy tau anda3 sume masih akan tetap membacenye dan menscrolldown lagi window ini.

betul kan betul kannn???
hahah. perasan.

okay, nak start mengarut dah.
hari tu tengah syok3 perut kenyang suka hati lepas dinner ayam goreng, sy dengar makcik DS men-suweet3 sy.

macikDS: bella, oo bella. kamu ke sini kejap.
sayeAKAbella: kenape macik? macik mimpi sy pasal sy lagi ke? (apparently she told me she had a dream about me having a boyfriend twice already. SCARY)
macikDS: ape plak mimpi kamu. ni ha, nak cakap. macik tengok muke kamu macam syarifah amani lah.
sayeAKAbella: ...........??????????....................

(which leads us back to this)

same tak same takkk??? maaf la yek. gambar takeberape hot tapi cun macam takhengat ni diambil pada tahun 2007. baru abes form 5. tengah sukasuki huhahuha kat cherating ngan kawan3sepasukan, tetibe lak ternampak manusie ni. chun gilak weyh, seyes taktipu. dorang ade shooting sindarela time uh. maveles. chanteekk.

since gambar tahun 2007, then latar masyarakat dan masa gambar pun, of course lah 2007 an. wajah masih nerd. pakai spek (walal skarang stil pakai spek same), gambar pun 2MP je berkat samsung E900. (skarang pakai nokia 1110 sebab navigator E65 company phone da rosak, lagi kesian weh).

key point dye kat sini.. despite kegemukan ketembaman kebulatan kependekan (tssk tsskk) yg semakin mengganas sepanjang 2tahun lalu, sy masih kelihatan seperti beliau (sh amani). sy bangge. *clap clap* dalam erti kate lainnye, sy takde la gemuk sangat pun. HUMPH. (ditujukan khas buat adam dan ridhu dan aiman dan sume3 yg takhabishabis cakap sy GEMUK, terimakasih)

teringat plak first remark kawan3 jiran sebelah sy - nabilah && echuq - on our first day kat KolejMaraBerpuaka lepas kembara kolej dulu3. (sila rujuk post sy yg tah zaman abrahah bila entah).

"you look like sh amani" (zaman3 speaking jawa dulu, sbb excited masuk IB world school la katekannn. *pukepuke*

i miss those days.. T_T

ps. just read an email from queen's university of belfast - an invitation to malaysian offer holders reception at renaissance hotel this saturday. they actually do such thing even